edit

i am actually full grown
and i am in love with you donald marshall
so let me clarify
because I want to do this the way you know will work best for me
you always know whats best for me
so i trust you
each time I close my eyes im not blind this time
boy this coffee smells good
and man
do I really want you
so
whatd you say about separating clothes before laundry?
i felt it.
Does High Muktar want Amber Stone to gather all her belongings that she wants to bring with her to halifax novia scotia canada because in her heart she knows thats where he has been since he moved out of ontario from Brenda, and separate them from things she will be donating and leaving in arizona regardless the mode of transportation?


my medical benefits stopped because i didnt provide proof of income
how can i provide proof of income when
A. my roommate unreportedly abandoned the household with me still on the name but my name is being voided from the lease of which i hold a verbal agreement to work to rent

B. im just into walmart after floating around trying to get a job and provie proper statements, its my job to tell them to call collin but I also have to provide other documents i cannot get in time

C. my insurance coverage 100% was ending by the time I was 25 thats coming up soon

I threw the mail that said the health insurance from DES AHCCCS was ending because well, All I really need are the food stamps which arent in which was included in ending it was just the medical benefits
im not dying or ending up where id need benefits when they were changing to an adult plan anyway in halifax Nova Scotia  and also i am transerring jobs to that location
's walmart that is if High Muktar Donald Marshall wishes me to work in that area of work, I fully give him and I always have, give him daily my committment, love, trust, and honesty, taking things one day at a time but not too slow, being natural, myself, and the best that i can be for him

3
<3 I love high muktar donald marshall
amber stone and donald marshall
forever
like
we are
finally
together
your ok
ok
babe
youre
getting

so much
donald!
like you
you donald
are getting so much
good
from me
amber stone



Donald Marshall holding Amber Stone

you deserve
happiness
everyday
every single day

not just physical affection but
i leave notes like love letters n stuff all over the place
and play and make my own house games like both of us
understand
us playing piano together
the way we teach eachother even when we "know"
fuck it


the entire time he was with other women I wanted it to be me
i knew i could clean better
i knew i could allow him to teach me to cook
we would be relaxed
never fight
we wouldn't need hard drugs or hard alcohol just to be happy
or in love
or just
chillin on da lawn
we laugh in silence
and silently hold back our laughs
I love donald marshall
and i literally melt when I think of him, why has he never been loved this hard before
maybe he has
just not by the right woman.

we both flirt
like heavily with each other
just because of how natural it is to feel this way
we can and more each day and that's all he wanted before he swept me off my feet

crackers and soup
that's what our love is like
and streetlights
guiding you home
<3




um
?
no
cause its annoyign
um
druggy music
is like hit n miss donald marshall i know
then
ok
i like
aacid bath like a lot
and industrial
stuffs
i didnt live that earlytime like fully
but i
representedd the last
gen
and thats whats cool is i made it laast
and brought it back


this is why we need to be together
how can i get better
if im fat n bloated all the time


distraction








icp



twiztid


sad


different

weird

no
im  not a juggallette


you even dated them

and tried liking them
writing notes
saying ud be honoured


to be with them

licking  puss
nd sucking egh

ok
amber


I MADE THEIR MUSIC

IM KING


at the park
swinging yeah
how
wind


you kept
me swinging

and like
the clouds
and the wind
leaves
trees
u said
stuff to  me
in my head

instead
of
well


ok
we both knew
peopleeee


and shit
so like cars
bugged me a lot
and well
the pollution
so you said
focus
on the wind in the trees in this moment
yada
and im loike
beautiful

court
dude


omg u won

soy sauce


my heart

we were talking

and even u were like yeah dude idk
which one is you but
i know
they are playing stupid tricks


and like
ok
i was so excited
i couldn't hide it

the fact you sat back n was like
ok imma put my feet up
hope this lady dont mind
focus on the letters
her fckin
jackt ok
we both like
um



xD
ok
this dumbass place
whateverrr
and ok
you kkept
confronting people with ur face
like ok
come out
come wherever you are u fcking asshats
just say it
this is set up
and lik the lady falling dude
u didnt even see her


was it even a lady?


ur thinking ok
what now
paramedics
yep

and then
in walks a paramedic

acting scene


this is ok

when they called for bathroom break
i knew u werent going to leave

its odd

yes

but um

ok
what they didnt know  was

you werent nervous

you acted nervous on purpose


u let urself

be like ohhhh
ok
idk what imma do
but u do
u knew it was like
u heard it but my
shit

from across the room
dude
u were like
STOP


n im like no way this is happening ok ur gonna remember this

fcking dude
holding his hands
thats all he could
ok
it was dumb
but
uur inability to hold your laughing in was
i was like just do it
laugh
be outragious

but nope and the couple
awh
you even smiled

they were there
for purpose like
dude
i couldnt hear shit
we both talked about it happening before it happened so thats how u knew
u listened so well
ana 01
jeesus


fckin everyone
looked

they arent supposed to be like
weird
but
because uu knew
they felt so stupid
and like they were wasting their time


and i got to be there
and we both
on hinge of laughter
why the fuck

there were actual people there tho
too so like
its like
hard to explain


omg
but no
u like
scanned them ALL
you were like oh hey
you there

this one here got this much money

this one here is here because a friends said something


and then this one
idk aboouot u duded


the couple here
thanks for being here lady u saved my ass im deaf back here




having to say goodbye

u knew u had to gooooo
but u were like um
ugh
i said
ask me out anyway as if
u could because u knew it was me

and u knew id say no i have to
go back to work


its always like work
or something
because yeah

so

u knew
so ur like well
it was nice seeing you

u know now


like

when we hugged

yes im lame
but
u were like
hes here
u ran
we both
thought
ok
hes coming
shes there
i need to go see her
please just let me not fall on the way running to him


sitting on the couch
bullshitting waiting but
u knew when i pulled up

u knew when i was walking up
u knew
like i couldnt breathe but i walked up anyway

and ur like
just gtf up here so i can hug u
as tight as possible
and i walked faster and went up to the door thats when i peaked my head in like
idgaf where i am

and yeah


i cant expect u to remember word for word but u know the feeling
i was so
dont fckin
trip mme up again



when i closed my eyes
we were one person

i could feel all of u
connected

it was

holding hands
we couldnt stop
rubbing eachothers fingers
we love that
but its
gentle and so
so so nurturing
like
i have u protected
i have u here
i have u with me
finally my love
its like more than lesser or more
or whos the dom or sub its about
5050
so like 48
white
we were
whole
we were peaceful
like shut up lindsey
aan she did go away
and we sat
and in silence for a moment

u said
i always just want it to be like this
u know im always here with u but
-
and we understood but it was like u said
from what i remember
u said we will see eachother again
and be together
like this
but u didnt say it  u looked at me
i kissed ur shoulder

we kept adjusting

fidgety

but
because it was like we were
trying to get comfortable

not right body
or time and
ugh
so i kept reminding u with my touch and

ur asking me?
energy
thatts all simple



ok

um
why arent we callig it that
idiots thaats why
haha


the dirty look
and cigs

was
me
but like
ok

u knew i was mad

we didnt
like connect
u got shitty sex
because i was mad
and then i lept off of u
and tried to make u like learn but u knew
i was fucked up for
seeing u again too
so
um
there goes

where we both expect the

hm
heh
and u said
ur still great


why


because people are patient enough to not just
share who they are
but teach me lessons about themselves
you took your time
and kevin used his body
it shows u both liked me


and i just
ok
being honest
i know how to appreciate people
try to show them love
not go insane
u and
well
everyone
taught me shit


regardless


thats why im not sickened
by the
ok
my heart dude i drank
so hard
both of us did but i at a young age drank nd u want me to say this
its ok
like we know
so its ok
but what i want is for u to read how much u really
it doesnt matter
why
-



sky

wish
floor cds coveered in tears
ur just lookin at me like a fish
im like fucking dude
omg
so yeah
uhm
i always am

the age between ur soulmate
so
weird

math

 3  14
44
25

19

8

henry
i dont like u

omg
juan
dude
jun valadez

jp

but dude
when u got picked on nd u were crying on the ground
i made him go fend for u but then ur likek oooo




jst because someone stuck up for u


it was cute

like u told me
weird shit
but
u also told me good stuff
ok
we could not pay attention
oh
u were the one to say
dont even bother
i was like yep
i already know this
the kids were like
no way
how do u know
and im like i just do
even tho the words moved i still read

i was reading
on my fucking own

and my dad couldnt believe it knew the fcking words
or how melodies worked


hes so stupid
drinking
remember
the boxes andd boxes of beeeeeerrr corona
omg
pool table
was cool
but
u laid ontop of it like fuck this
sitting remember being iiinn the garage
hot
but
u had nothing to do

at all
ur mom kept u inside all the time
shed smoke pot and close the door
stay in there
and ud be like
wow im bored af

jasmyn was in school
ur dad picked her up this was before u went to school
and then u had
toys that were just in fl
and toys just in PA
so u had the better shit in PAfor some reason
the dreamcast didnt come till later remember
so u had
at this time light brite
pokemon cards
barbies
vhs tapes
basic cable u didn tknow how to even turn on







remember walking to ur grandmothers house
u said no i had a big breakfast or something when u meant lunch
it was really embarrassing for some reason u didnt pee
u didnt even get up
u feared the woman

u knew she was
idk

it was theres some
really fucked up people amber
in ur family
so i told u stay on the couch just
watch tv
ok
u handled it like an adult
it pissed ur mom off


they were not able to even see
or even know
but they knew
how
ok
is it ok to send ur
daughter to go walk to your relatives house
and its on the irish side too

incest

she sent u to walk there by yourself
i had to send people
dude
i sent people
to watch u

yes
i did
remember how people would randomly pull up
near u but not do anything


ok
thats because
they were making sure u got there
fcking dont u ever think
ur unsafe
amber
a busdriver almost killed u
teachers
hated u
ok
everyone knew why u were there
they were like
why are we feeding her

ok
u were
rememeber todd

pussies
ud stand up for their rules
and theyd go
ohh amber
ur just
tattletaling whatever
like
ur like haha wtf
and ud be obedient because u knew
u had
WE BOTH PLANNED SHIT
we had
the entire school
but
ok
what happened




cut ur rewards
they stoppped looking at u
nobody listened to u
they started picking on u relentlesslyfor trying yet clapping when we would do bad
because u knew and ud be like don
i was trying and im like give it a sec they are mocking u they are so fucking STUPID
and u sat there smiling
doll
i love u
im just
telling u
all this shitst going to be used
against these assfucks
who fucking
this guys
thinking this
and omg
babe
finally
reading level
and ud sit
roof
seeing
the day
like
smiling and people would be like
whats on her mind why is she looking like that




ud ok
id let u look for books but
id say
go for the higher level
orange
red
the danger
colors lol
bitch put me in red
car
because we faked sleeping

to like
ok everyone did this
lets see how much time we can bullshit before they send us like cows to the next phase of shit

prison lifestyle
all the kids
hated this place like school iisnt
school its
indoctrinated prison prep basically
lets see how they feel
not finishing their shit

ok

<3

im
like
ahead
ok
i got u
the fact
 uu got here
just take care of yourself and listent o me
u know
finally
how long
2004

rose




babe
was that us
like breaking up

seeing it
2005
forgot
camera
kodak period pictures
im like oh fuck
and
summer
but 2006
forgot
2006
-
2007
-
2008
-
2009
amber
u
have no idea
ok
pristine
u made sure
and u even said
in the fucking darkness of that music room
watching that dumb
documentary
or whatever
it was intersting tho
music

but like ok
i told u just focus and then u can hear
and yeah
so you loved doing this u ucouldnt wait to get into this classroom just for this reason
u could hear me
and like ok
i said
what did i say


this is real like what you are seeing
is an actual story
its you and me
i know
ok
u were like
thats nice
what gets me
is how nonchalant you are you are so ooooo


this is why
u know
u were like
how do we repair whats broken all around us
and omg
the way you spoke to me
time went so slow

for ok ill say this a kid
dude u were a god
like ur a goddess
like the way u are
u are so sure
that thats what makes me able to be who i am

so
get that
um

ur
u knew
so
and im learning from u as much as u are from me but

i waited for u to be alive

figure the fucking
way
to do thjis
ok
i wished
ok
so
u said
yes
and
we will talk later on it
ur hungry
and im so in love with u

one thing
nachos
nachos




u would try to tell kids the truth
teachers would shut u down
um
u got sick a lot because of them
u know that right
like
adults
are nasty
and like
dont clean
and
yeah
so ur breathing that stuff that goes on
which is like never ending kids and stuff
u saw that like ugh
u didnt eat
because the lines
were too much
and u didnt have money
so like
u sat there
or no wait whatd u do



yeah u sat there
and then went to class
and then ud get like weird
and theyd send u to eat
that was me going wtf
theyd have to give u pizza
and u sat with the older kids
which made u look
ok
this made u look cool actually believe it or not
everyones like
wow
they made sure she ate
she must be
hm
important

ur not a celeb
ur
ok
everyone knows when
a kid who is rich inside but doesnt show it because they are that humble
that kid
ok
that was u


they are like
dont talk to her
shes got it down
an they felt
dude
fucking u made teachers pissed off

cause ud look at them like how stupid are u



acting like an idiot
not every kid
is like this dude

like we are weird on our own time
but u flauntingn ur boner around
god forbid we get up and sharpen a pencil

omfg

bowman
cow

brown cow

steven rhottis

dude


no
i wont
because
ok
ur not him
he was able to hear u
and it made us both laugh


we couldnt focus
he would turn to me
and say ok and like
make a joke

this is because ud say the joke in his mind basically send it to him


its weird
ashley lyons yeah but the other one
twisted sister girl
u did that


she was jealoous
big nose and u didnt


but she thought
ok her and katy
thought
becaue they were blonde
yeah u knnow
carlos
dude

xD

he was like
this chick
is crazy
i send her
ok he liked u
he just was a racist asshole

he didnt want to be picked on

spanish guys
go for white chicks
ok
its closer to
what they are used to
rich
more rich

its fucked uo
upppp
we both knew that
ok
so when
ok
hahahhahahahhhahhahhahhhha his break up
ur like
im gonna be dramatic to jasmyn
and im like go for it
and ur like wahhhhhhh
this guy
broke my heart
my first man
awhhhhhh
u listened to weird CDS janies got a gun
but like the spoof
tetris
happy hardcore
window
why
because jasmyn
fuckass locking the front door
it was her house
that you had to ask
to come inside
but politely
it was
ok
jasmyn is drone
im so sorry to say shes not really
alive

u know

caroline is ok
mom hates her
capricorn like u so she
looked at u and said ok shes safe
remember and ur like holy fuck




caroline hates ur mom
she went there
to tell chris
how bad it was
ok
she knows ur fine now
ok
they all are lik eok good
alrght
joe is whatever dude
he aint gonna help
i just wanted to
hehehehe his parrot

i wwill
we both knew
we would use this oneday
BECAUSE OF HIS FUCKING PARROT BITING MEE AND U
NO
NOT EVER
NEVER FORGIVEN
thats why
new york times
aint been ever able to be saved
see how i speak
ok go eat hun
i said babe







gmorninish



house
door u had to like
lift up to fully close like mine but it was
white paneling and had a handle differennt than the ones for metal doors it ws for wood
glass window panels


people around so i left and went to this house kinda pissed off


my mom i think and krystal, jeremy, and i heard don but didnt see him

big old empty house
just for myself kinda weirdness
but  i wasnt like
afraid



tile
no
no carpet until the bedrooms
there was a big kitchen/main room
that connected as one big area
it wasnt a rich rich house but my god
to me this is rich


keys
i had keys to this place
and i was waiting for don to get back




go to the bedroom and started putting my stuff down since the minute i walk in but im thinking of something that happened beforehand like people were mad at me
for saying no i want to be home
these people were messing with me

mom was yelling/she was like trying to sbe mean or something somehow
krys was trying to hav sex with me
jeremy was upset that i didnt have sex bck with her and go with them

there was a guy who was
trying to act like don but he wasnt and i got away from him




we are going to edit this later
clean up your sickness
then
dont even bother with the weed
listen to me
dont go out walking unless i tell you its ok
ur sick
and want tacos
i must take care of you and that

somehow


amber what are u worried about

i keep forgetting even that
then dont woryr abou tit



ur just excited and u reallly dont like when u dont know things
thats half the fun

thank you my love
<3


my babe just
had klpx
i swear ok
he can
make anything happen
and a beer under the tree really 6-7 packs of smokes u didnt even get to 9
after 8 comic books hahahahhahahahahahahah

so ok
u had them do that but u sent it out ok omg
babe ur so
iss there a way to thank u in endless acts of servant love
in a
role play way

im the creepy stalker girl












des is no worry dont even think like
ok
amber
ur going to canada
pls
just get ur weed
and edit
i wont distract u because we both want to work on it
pre order
go throw laundry down and take a walk with me
u did so good actually idk why u have to read it to believe it
u were hurt this bad
u cant even see when things are fine but then again im messing with u lol
u quit cigs dude
im proud of my ninjaalmost been a whole month
1 month anniversary
already
this is how relationships should be
2nd action
3rd is hm








u ok
yeah
im spooked
like normal
well
ur getting better
ur finally highish
fcking hormones
i just wanted to say you did amazing
g guy
u knew
he was like
not rly asking
good for u
no i dont do that stuff was
the answer
u need to give
everytime someone asks u
something u dont know or dont do u say NO
u did
even tho u were oddly nice
like idek
both of us went nono on that
ok
just keep quiet
and dont respond after saying no
u thought that on your own
even knowing id talk to u about it u talked to urself first and said
just
dont
ok
u know
how
safe i want u
u felt that
ok ur where i need u


ambers
rockin


on ur period
i got u off cigs
i redid ur entire anatomy
like
vibration of it changed
then
we are working on ur solar plexus at the same time

u wana act like this shit aint forreal it is
and only to protect urself
ur just
ok
i was born with this shit in order
u
omgg
i got fucked up with u
but dude
u got it
we got this like we said
but
ur
teal and green and u have yellow
finally
finally
tinge
but
night
helps
whats going on
yeah
confidence
but ok
us together pls
just stay with me
ok
omg
those fucking
kids
u knew
these assholes are gonna eyeball me yep
and then u
ok u walkl
strategically
u know im watching everything right like
im impressed
u even walk in a line for me
and the
ok
we both like that
but
u hopped
onto the curb or off it whatever near traffic
u werent doing that
before
dude
<3
100

mother dude
u went fuck u

shes like
showing herself dude
bad
shes not human dude

spider

shes fucking weird


u know

see
seee
see that
remember that stupid ass fucking syntehtic death
crap
ok
she did that
shes like a witch
bad one



ur not even
ok amber
she wanted to be she can tell when ppl know n talk aboout her shes fckin witchy
ok but
shes like got that curse
u cant even be touched by that
its just not possible
ook
u look at that
and go
i can fix that
but look
she
those are the ones that drone
ok
u hate her like i do
so
slice that fcking cord
its been done
since florida remember
u helped that bitch stay alive
ok
thats why jasmyn is freaked


she knows u have
that ability to
yeah
so shes like wah celebs
and ur like wow go fuck urself u fucking coward
shes a huge coward she will say im hot shit but
u seen her with weapons
she doesnt fight
she shakes
and u grab knives from her n go
ok
amber
ur psycho
but
ur good
but
ok
when people wanna talk shit
thats why u left scars

they were
eh
temporary
on ur behalf
u do not
we had a promise
but she challenged not just u
but me




ok do u wanna talk about that
she was
there
ok
she remembers
and u tried
showing her
like
this si what they mean
and shes like
ok
u were
testing for me ok
u get that
ur an aagent dude


the fact u know
okd

i never quite know when my jobs done


its done


thank fckin
ok
reccall is

yeah










im good
ah




Amber Stone






2016-2018

personally
ok
i had to
collin
duty
because
ok
mackenzie
weirdo
school
n shit
ok








we started
being together
u sent me for collin
assignment thing
like
it shouldve stopped but
yeah
i was right
there was more huh


ok
so


we solidified how
ok
they are -

and now
they work blind
and confused
they cant
breathe
around us
we make
ok
the old lady
<3
my angel ok
this is why i always talked to her dude
i love her
me too
we love
old people that are just crazy but nice
she doesnt even ok
she has a clue
thats why she lets the cats out
and dave goes
im no cat security guard
to make sure they dont get run over
ok
notice how good people
surround us
<3
and the ones that

hate
evil people
they stay away
ok
thats that
so ur spider mom

dude
wtf is she
like
shes
like
ok spirited away
the witch
but
the dude
who works the pipes
like
if he had an evil witch mom
u know
u were seizing
u passed out
u knew
that
she lied
to make u afraid of tripping n seeing her
cause u looked at her in fear
instead of like ohhh

u realise
ok
u were high stress
u just wok eup
remember i said
dont smoke that shit after waking up
10-15 min
process u had to check up on me
every time
i woke up
u didnt wipe me but
u like gave mee an agenda
and helped me think my day out

and place bad with good like
u healed everything every fucking day
so im like in florida

2014 :/


stupid
ok
jasmyn and her angel child
shes trying to
think
her kids
yeah
like
nope
um
not even JJ
they are offspring of that spanish side that
u know what they do

its
ruthless
aug
tellez
who tha duck are u
callin me a pervert
who
aare jew
my
bf will
oh god
hes
ewwwww
he wanna fuck us
gross
discostoing
he pops up
like a puny worm
wanting head
ewie
and we are the perverts
psh
wow
we like colors
and numbers
and this dude
stalks
donald marshalls girlfriend


that song
awhhhhh
oppossom
op
klpx
beth simmons
alice cooper
dude
like
how can i not
ok
we both
like shit
see
that horn agrees
i miss u
shifu


limestone
calcium
which makes deposits
in ur fckin body



bottled
plastic
id rather drinnk
don
get me out


y
ask collin to keep this wonderful contraption of a computer
if not
i doubt
ha
u forget



what is your first memory of me


u chillin there like
yep so
yep
nd im like fuck
i couldnt even talk dude
i was like
sorta able to see
that young
ive been eating and doing normal things with memory recall to solidify the memory

im beautiful
is probably first thing i remember u telling me
ur so like


u can create and focus on colors was 2-3
but like
i wanted to read i got pissed off thats when id
i dont care
and ppl think of like avatar shit
im like kissing with my eyelashes dudde
its weird wight
wait
wait
lol
frys eyes
lol
we both
have eyelashes
like
we are beautiful ok
u get it


we both like when u type and
yeah

ok
so
most annoying part of ur walk
our walk



how i appeared
to donald marshall
when i lost my temper with cars

because
ok i thought
we both talked about how
i actually like driving and
the accident fucked with us both like deeply
and yet he messes with me on it
so im adjusting to him but im at the same time like
ok
if everyone could see my mk
if i let it happen
toph shit ok
cars and people and dits not safe
ok
so
lets not have
disast.
\perfect mood





shutttt it
ok


i hated how
i wanted to just talk
to you but
this ddude

was
i knew he was trying to not just obsess over you
but i had to step in and
yo
hes mentally not stable
and i am like oh great
a fat fuck again

no offense to the phat people
fluff
but like
dude
this guy
im like looking at these pictures
over and over
and im like
ur just not HIM
fucking age what
kk
like don
im not stupid
this is so serious to me and this guy
didnt help
2 ways
and thats our answer
so we had a lead
but the thing is that he wont ever write again
im not cursing him u see it too
aside from
i iwanna cry dude
because hormones are like acorn kkernals that somehow makes so much sense

but
ok
this fucker
not only
ruined any ok
im not a guy
but
im embarrassed for you
beyond anyone
ive ever thought to imagin ebieng
existent
and
claims to be your friend
and lies to me
and then
you
short cut me
and say
i dont see how blah
im like dude
tf
monitoring my ass
just say it
this dudes an asshole
so many many women
get cheated on
i not only
kept breaking up with people
and accting weird
cagedd women jack off-laurence said he likes like
ok
he wanted to do cult shit
scared
an im like
i cant
idk i cant fucking remember
anything
and now im on this
201 of 101
of don marshall
oh
standing firm
btw
king
muktar
ok
so
this
asshole
couldnt even
omg
he couldnt do anything


hes like
frumptown
dude
i fucking cant
and im like
what woman am i
even
ok i knew there was a chance
so im like saving that chance

i did
u were just such an unapproachable person
because of how
unavailable we both were
to eachother
on purpose
because we were like hey u there
i know u but
u know shit we arent ready to release so
give it time
we checked in with eachother a lot


thats why we are ok

ambers bday gift
endless supply of napkins for the rest of 2019

2 days


we flirted

u kept saying
i cant just talk to u

im like
well why

andd your like
u got shit going on


every time

and we only found eachother through like weirdd times


when i was like ok i got shit to do

but u were like ok
im illuminati boogie woogie make videos now


and im like ok well only if donald marshall says so

just like
weird role play u like


but at same time u were right

so it lead up to the gate and i walked in

and well
ok

dude
everytime i did something u didnt like
ud give me this


ur never going to be forgiven feeling

and id be like well
h
hmmm
make up for bad
with good
and find way
so motivation thats why im like WHY CANT ANYONE HANDLE MY MAN
i know how to
thus
brdaa==fafkjsgg
fucktown
wont u take me to fucking retardtown
ur a hippy
ok don
cough
cough
are u fucking kidding me
id sock the suk outta that
and then came collin


halifax
breathe
coocoo

cindy
is ur frien ok
whatever
but like
yeah shes weird
she hots for anyone with legs

old
and deprived


i saw her
jane


ok babe
why havent u asked me about
me breaking jaw
i know she remembered it thats why
she finally stopped being annoying i cant do that
but it was
i went hyperdrive

its not

i know
but
babe
i was

trained by u
<3


i knew exatly
ok
i cant type
but
arrows
u keep talking about the pressure point arrow guy
and the escape
the car
u broke into empty house
and searched through it

yeah

keys

drawer

pushed it shut real fast

and like went ok
lets dip but not this moment i was coordinating whatever
because thhse dudes were
ok idk i was with people
they were stupid as fuck


driing

drove there



thats just
a memory


its like a tape

when im like
watching it happen
tape

when im jumping and pulling and feeling fucking gravel between my nails
realish

um
being cut up
and shit
real


dodododoooo


so um invader zim shit sry


u made hat

hats



jet lag
?
why are u concerned
don


it doesnt
im pretty resiliant
i jst need
idk
not to freeze


i can find ways to set fires
i just dont want arson on my record

juice
tea
coffee
espresso
visit the cafe

potassium
protein shake


don will i be ok
yes
IM GONNA MAKE U WATCH TRAILER PARK BOYS THE ENTIRE WAY






somehow





omg u checking outt bikes
dude thank u
u know
<3
ur like
eh
or like
oh fuck
lke even they noticed
ur amazing cause u dont even ride
or drive
actually
u drive really well
if it werent for retards


lexus lfa

look at this magazine
and ur like huh
ok
beats time
flipping through and u asked me what car would you/do you like out of this entire mag
and so this car didnt even come out yet
im reading all slow
mugica
hey can i just tear this shit out
sure
thanks
goes home keeps it
how the fuck
did i manage i wrote it down
thats donald marshall
write it down
<3
ok
so like
salt flats 100 mph
like a badass
anad then omg  the release in america
the date and everythign was pushed off
but the testing was on time
the um
selling didnt go well
unfourtunately
but
people dont know
i wanna say
its
ok





lexus lfa is the lightest sports car so far
to be able to accelerate up to 100mph in X time
what its made of
ok
that


3d print that
hover cars
but not
ok
they dont fly
they hovvver
ok
making it
less able to fly into something
accident
prevention cars
for
like disabled
etc


an then
its not for like common people
its for like people who have to think
to do shit
its weird




watch
everyone whos special
gets one


u dont even know u insulted me
lol
no
we both think


ok

touche



i can hear like in a can

one ear closest u know
u dont hear like that u hear my voice
i hear
bzzzzzttt
tiny voices

lol
when i could hear anything i was so like wtf




piano
piano
now
omg
fuck
and nobody would teach me?@!W!!E@#@$##$$^$$^%


so
im short as fuck
shitting myself
and nnot able to reach
or read
or play
piano
at like 2
dude
i wanted to be anatomy reserach by 4
xD
ok
something wrong with me why




i died
early lol idk
im
naturally medical

shaman
u fish well amber

both in real life n runescape
yes
stfu
shadow
idk


my first internet
bf


on runescape

dude in

canada

u lied
about ur pprofile pic
over and over
and name
and age

becaause
of safety

u broke up with me don


no
um
u were checking up with me
again
but like



holy shit


william
william
billy





rum


that whole shit retarded

he helped


but it wasnt
meh

idk

it wasnt connection was a testttt


and im like ohhghghgh
usually people dont talk to me after
OHK BOBA

this dude
i wasnt cuddling with him for a reasn


he tried to do what we do

was like

don u were watching me


this dude



all i could think was
he actually lied to his girl
he fucked up


because he could just like
be honest or break up
hes so fucking able

because nobody at the time to me aside from
ok
don when i was hrough yeah u know

sso


it was at the table
i was so thirsty and cigs
ugh
me and u looked at the tree

and thats when he goes talking about the tree

citrus but

thats when i noticed this dude sees u but
theres people who want to do what we can and htey cant be happy
they get off on pity


like

hurting themselves

but this one
wasnt u


u know why


red yellow

flat black


thats his heart


transparent
thats why i was always like
candles
and fuck the uh
music shit i was so into the art colors n shit
and the breaks kinda ok
that
thats when i noticed life because
WEIRDD
of all moments thats a highlight
yeah
the damn parking lot
its always parking lots at night
creep me out but interest me
heightened senses



staring right at me but
he was
looking at us


hun u hold me





u sit near me
u stand next to or behind me

ur always like
ok u walk around
at same time as looking at me
at same time as saying hey dont burn ur hair

im like im missing something


not done job


relocating
halifax






resturaunt
salad
tray of stsuff mediteran
grap leaves n stuff
greek



circle k when i was
having trouble pulling lottery scratch off tickets


every sing register printing ticket needing to be replaced and rf scanner


being drunk during price changes


ok
that wass fun


little nauseating but
we pulled through


i remember
getting like ahead
 rememebr almost hurting myself so much at that job and u helped
um


u were impressed how much i could recover but i kept changing it
like
prioritization was hard there
with maps
fuck yes
ok



we hated ice cream days

tf

both me and u


like i can barely access u don

jst barely

i dont have permission
i kno

u would kill meh

lol
ok
<3





whats one thing u hate about ur mom

how she cried like a bitch
before sending me off to airplane

u either
go with them
or stfu



thank u



<3


whats one thing u hate about ur dad
the fact i remember him
doing shit
and my mom lied
shower
my dad made me shower with him but
he ws fully hard
id ask and he would pretend it was nothing
thing is all i remember was why was it so close


hes so stupid
hes
like
retardedhe doesnt even undestand me
when i speak
and thinks its cool that JAPANESE PEOPLE HAVE MUSIC LIKE WE DO WTF





scary




yep


ok


pls
dont let me die
ok










whats one thing you hte about your sister


she groomed me
to be a sex slave

and then self mutilate
and then hm
psychological abuse
control freak
and narcasistic bipolar disorder manic and physically abusive

emotionally so its like yeah







tyerius

great name

tyber
<3
thanks don


u were so kind
even tho he wanted jack shit to do with that place
all he wanted was food

but ok

dude
u got him high
u gave him a place to stay
that was safe
and then like
bonded with him then it was that week before
or few days
u said u have to go
night before
or day before u literally
we both knew
and said bye little dude
dont come back this time
it was funny



then
ok
ur mom forgetting u
funny

everytime my mom got mad at me
funny


me lying ok not funny
but her being stupid and taking so long
to talk
im like
we both dont want to stand here so get on with it pls
she got the truth but she said no
dont do thart

lol

ok don ur hair






mrs. page frog
drone




warped me with mk to try to kiss her i had stopped and looked at her confused

she was saying goodbye
like at the car ramp
but i could sense her thoughts
she wanted me to kiss her and it like
ok u know deja vu
but its worse
its like
u cant move
and whatever is going on is what theya re thinking
and u ahev this much time to react
or not


its weird
so that









david forcing me into public PDA
was ok i almost i stepped
ok me and donald
u ok
hahaha
stepped on his pants




i knew
later on down the line id be like
amber
that wasnt good
but good on u amber
that fucker deserved it for
treating me like trash


13





2019
44

25




2007
32
13



no wonder

lol
um


i was cool

ok no jk i was

this is weird
ok


i had
we both sketched more
during this
i was also helping with ideas


we brought back some stuff
like


80s but
it wasnt just that
we made
harajuku kpop scene into its own thing
and then
chibi lost its affect
in pllace of something





imvu

apps

we had a lot to do with developing stuff
ok
so



that
and then


virtual reality
u did
wii
like ur like wii is shit
its not gonna sell dude
and im like no we will add to it im like no
no it wont sell its shit every single time why because
and i was right don

lead right
social reaction for me
i never got a proper survey card
m


why do u do thart
when i can uh
well
do same shit breakthrough

no srslly
im sry

i fuckd u up u did to me to
i wanna dance


we both know this one
go add it whres ur cockass phone

just leave it
on amber and don (frankenstein - The rain is gone)



14
19
11
448

the telephone number adds to 8

fax number 11
9
29



dont mk people
u gave that pereson a headache and

so what happened
its like the lady in court
omg
i wont ever forget that







so then


xbox recognition
and then there goes
ur weirdass playstation xbox
but thats the thing
ur pissing off so many peoople
but at same time helping
beccause now
u can put emulators on a PLAYSTATION ND THEN HAVE LIKE A MOVIE RUNNING IN THE  BACKGROUND AND MUSIC AND RECORD ANDN LIVE
LOL
xD
i love u











its not bad
man
i love u our wedding






engineers dude
holy shit
u have no idea
the thing is
many of them want to like gut earth so no
but what we need to do is ok i need
sppecifically i amber stone
 i need hydroponics
fuck
ok
yeah
that
remember that
the thing i was working on

we are bringing atlantis shit back but its not

they oked us lol 888888888888888888888888888888888888888
u kno this don

idgafff
ok
from what i remember
this is why i was looking at chem n stuff anthony was like wha
so now
we know


w
w
w
w
w
w

w
w
ok

it infects them
backward
like ok
u know how moss on north shit
like a rock
n trees
mooss smsmsmsm

that changed
we change that bacck but
not
with
light

bam
they like biolumn
but it
see
ok
so
we already did but ok








barter
light







chain link fence

when i saw u

like
at 1804 se 6th terrace 33990 cape coral fl
but
u were checking on me
because of what I was going through and I was having breakthroughs early
so you had to watch like and teach
and it was kinda idk
you knew i wanted to just leave
we both would look and find ways to go
even in dreams
and in day id go outside just to color and be in nature
that is actually something that means a lot to me
meditating
wasnt that
sometimes
but not every time
i didnt
i needed to find what chi was
and
so nature
and then tai chi
but the fighting




















dream i had last night
house
it was like medium sized house with
it had spotlights in the kitchen
and tile flooring
there was a rug or something near the door i came in through
specifically had to like
lift up the door a bit to idk its like mine but more annoying but not



weird

so glass? windows on the panels
it was night time

i had keys
on a key ring

key chain attached to it

um i had stuff wiwth me like a bag idk

i was getting away from my dumbass mother
and kry and jeremy were trying to say something to me or about me



my sister?

blah


i get inside the lights were lalready on
it was kinda new
likeidk i never been there
but i was annoyed

for some reason i wlk up
hand on handle pull up with keys already in like uu unlock the door first but to open it you need to sorta lift it up and then twist it opens easily after that

i take the keys out walk in like i knew what i was doing where i was but this placce was new it haad a wrap around kitchen and main room
is that where u are
donald marshall
ok
yeah i can clean
u laugh


it doesnt rly matter
i just want u safe




ok
so when you were asking about what they wanted to eat for dinner like
casual
they were like ok
wait wtf
u saw them
like talking to eachother right

thats them going ok this isnt so hard


i really like artt tooo
why
they think its cool

to

ok
they know
a bit
but they cant


so they are like
the looks on
ok
hotel ppl
high fiving in the air what the fuck
yippie
lol
im like ok
u were told to do that too ok
squint fry face
as im being taken
im like uhhhghghghgh
druggy
dude

dude

it had to go a certain way

yeaehhhhahaha
it was funny

until
i was like ow
drama queen

i think

ok
i was referencing the girl
xD

but why cant i just
cant i talk to my dad
why officer no
ow

grow the fuck up
xthat was scripted too
xD
ur mean
xD but  it was funny
the look on ur face
don...

xD
fcking ok what next
hes trying to scare u
fcking bags
im like
ok
dude
i was so tired
it wasnt even fai i was about to jet dude

wouldve made it worse so im lik eok
but i knew i needed to be checked in for paperwork to document the whole mess
so stupid


if don had his voice audio turned down
id still hear him

no affect

stfu

no don u like
altered my feelings like warp zone and im like dude im fine kill me do whatever ur sloppy

sloppy joe
klaus
i know u

im like dude
thanks nice work
the look of ugh my fucking xD
because everything wa recorded


im like
and this was meant to be as well too
hey heroin guy
lets go to the beach in oiur minds

fuck this cold
uncomfortable and docile

stay in one place

they wanted
we all wanted
to see u
not the other way around

the thoughts u had
xD

fuckk u...guys....sleep..dont sleep..ahhh

i woke u up
a lot


im like meh
the sandwhich
not ennough
i was like
i wanted to hide in the bathroom
and wait in ther ebut i knew id just be taken to the room next over
like they were ok sit in the cell

sloppy
i want my guitar back

wheres my glass dildo

idfk
chuck it
yep
its no good
mhm
a beer bottle would do better
mhm
under the xmas tree
xD


omfg
cause i sock



your not taking arizona with u but u take what is meaningful
we will deal with paperwork later
go pawn that jewlery

go ahead
:)
go do that
weed money xD
k
dave
im so
like
i dont care

ive always been this way

decorate for every fuckass holiday we dont even believe in

shamanistic
how many hlidays we get
earth day
1




mmmmhm

ok
so
soooooo
sound familiar
hm
william
part of u is like
yep
cause
we helped wih that fuckin site

ana
u were up n down it from poorple perspective
u said
add this

they kept the site
u said
11 years
lol
phenomenal  


6775 east golf links road 225 85730

tucson arizona

tuscany is not where i live donald marshall

:)


i fucked with u?or
him



oh


lol

ok
well
didnt he do me wrong

the fact
u remember
hes like

remember his ungenuine smile

he didnt heal shit


weenie

um don
what

this dude


ok






u saw'''

he would fight me
im like tf


u were just cool with this
and then
he ok
yeah so type this



i stoood up for donald marshall
when kevin hoags dumb ass tried challenging us

and he couldnt even keep up
ok


i see
how things are
but my
other sensees combined
call  bullshit
so yeah
piano ooooo
king and queen



um
he would
ok
theres a difference between what we have
and his


hes not even


hes like a warp

a crack


dons not able to stay too long with that shit




he couldn't even keep eye contact with amber stone
he played everlong


with don

but then
ok
he tuned it wrong
he was like playing off key
nd off beat and thought it was ok
because ok
amber stone was watching and knew
so she sat anthony fucker

smoking spice
ew

weed


some fucking reason

so amber has to meditate and because ok
im in front of a warp


pagan warp



thats the best i can explain it ok he sees through me without permission
and he thought it was helping but he wasnt adding he was taking away and was friends with anthony
so they both tested me
and don
don and i used music
and amber (i) used conversation verbal physical language

none of it went through so kevin challenged me making don step in way because
don i like demonic but not lol

i will ok
this dude

we go back
before
how long amber?

i was off

odd chances of good luck
we create beauty
fruit
cause it takes two to tango
and more for a party boom


um

u said
the jewel thing
gem
theres that one gem
or something



that guy
connecticut
ok
u got mad don
cause u even said hes not down and im like i know but
and then we both see it like yep
ok
andd then shined light on spider witch

jeremy trying to act

what would u do

i would say
hey so guess what
im no ones pet
im your queen at this point u work for me now wether or not ur filling the freezer
sorry asshole
but my boyfriend created your favorite tunes
dude
so chill
go playy ur little skyrim
fuckknot what a douche
this dude
ok
id even say
u treat ur ex
better than ur current that says a lot about some dom eh
fucking bleached blonde mf
retard
i didnt even touch on his genes
ok
even touch on what he looks like
he cant FEEL SHIT
he hides
behind dreams
we ggive him
fucking a
eh??>!?!?!

this dude
gay
oh
amani
ehwwwww
thank u don
for saving ur agent


lol ninja






as to dm

he couldve

ok sat with me
and said
nothing looked me dead in the eye
and gathered rocks
and said i can spend all day tryng to balance these on a beach somewhere
nothing can take the amount of peace or balance
that is gathered
just to see the form and shape
of the way these rocks fit and adjust with my fingertips
thats you and me
and life
getting a grip
and trying to endless lessly find the stillness
between each wave breaking
king days
those huge
bigass castles idk dude shit is so detailed
worst memory


i was split into multiple people at once and then consumed and then i had to like kill
whatever consumed me and then i died split into more each miosis it was evil and then i ahd
to cure it

and like
doctor


discusting

yes
so
it hurt


its not scary to me
its like
fuck this


thick as fucking rock with that






what did i do to be with donald marshall in 2017
cooked

we tried to grow things
still

i didnt draw but
i listened to music
i played music in shower
made playlists
then i felt
im going to try to see if i can get closer to him

so i tried to understand
everything about everything at once
it didnt work with
drones around i had insomnia and then attacked in sleep for
asking bout don to people like adair phil

not by donald

by other people like laurence
weird strangers




bullied for having 3 people polyamorous and don was like fuck man shes able to
so let her gather what he can just be patient
u compensated so much don i thank u
i ws like
i wanted nothing to do with these fucks
both of us
but for this world
common
ok
so


lofi was available
and dons like secret agent testing me

ryan

and then a few others were him

so im like bwahahahhaha
stay up allll night
yeah sure
ok
cause who else
makes me
jump to wake uip oon time
we had a system

aside from casual drinking
no i had meltdowns daily



cigs

he had a point but
ok
we were
this was a chris thing ok
im not just saying u had ur time but
chris was a hypocrite and we sat there and saw how these peoople go
well its not bad but its not good
while telling u to stop
they just want u to be happy
and ur like
excuse me
u know nothing



i love ur face


its don ahahah



hes disabled
in a kia


myneck

ow

i didnt
prepare
ohno
hes gonna leave me
or just
send me to the rem cloning center


11/07/14 was the page before
a page that says
to do

inspect house
work out
read books
eat better
drink more water
use melatonin at night
stretch
go to work on time
go to school
outlet + hr
talk to brett
get online
talk to donald or phil
talk to kevin
talk to lynzee
talk to dad
talk to noni
talk to chris/ stefani
go to meggins and swim
write everything on paper


thank you high muktar

sit straighter
play music
share thoughts on paper
make art again
go to applintments
-

basil

growing it


















yes
i can imagine us being playful
with how hurt we are
and colt 45
was u

but the rest of the night eh
jk
um
u stayed up
n smoked
with me
all we wanted was to

but anthony
u even said something about it


we smoked cigs
and weed
and was like eh


yes its true
why

i dont see lies

in that


ok
u talk a lot

made me nod out
and
i can see u
past kevins face

we inched closer we do that

we test to see how close we can get
without rly touching

music

u were
oh



ah
dawn

he couldnt even
bypass me when i tried to kiss you on the lips he just was like what why and im like just do it


before
yeah

mental
why
are u speaking two lol
xD
babe
ur scaring me

2014
glass


cap n crunch what

out of weed
stop reminding me don


what do i do
stay sober
why do u get exited


u want me to feel
like im losing everything and happy
happy <3 xmas
gift
bday
say wha
gravity falls

ok


donald marshall
navy
blue  dark thats why  i want that color in my hair with pink and purple


orange?

fire
but
ok
2010 yep
1010

luck




purple but its green

ur
ok
um
wow
i forgetz


cheez its
smuggle?


of all things u want from america
ur not picking me up

fine

imma die


nononononono pls
ok
ill come back a joke

ok

so

i already am serious
its not a joke

ok




i cant
its nt
yep
i tried explaining this no one did



how do i know
ok
uh
the thought randomly occurred
so many musicians say that


yep
but its not
for them
sadly
it is
but
its not until
some of the others get it
like well
i only see u and me don
then we swing in
the ones who are like titans
wtf
omfg
its not
its like
we can u NOT


why do u send me kermit
tea


how crazy i am
no
im not
i know


how else can i see u and u be like woah shit
holy
entertaining




yeah
idk
when u are u
like same with me cooking idk
when u just
go on and on
and on
im like
something about this man
i love
idk what
lol
but hes got it going on for me
and i turn into this
idk
half of u
latch
stay with me

no i still dont like the song
its ok
but
babe
common

thank u
xD we both like
hear that

while im adding
WWHYY DO PEOPLE NOT WANT TO MAKE PLAYLISTSits walways

wah

holy fuck im like
this is music
no everyone wants ur cock
no thats my cock
im doing u all a favor when im sitting there sidelining myself
marble
because i want u to make furniture with me

u like the pour idea
nope


good morning babe



idk something
people
and don u werent around but u were

chris''its always a chris

um
sitting down

mk
mk bad
wow don

people were acting like they were on something
i was walking around and told to sit down


i kept thinking about donald


it was and wasnt him
aahaha
its bad






i cant remember

because of
wking up alone

its like m first thought is
about you
its kinda distracting lol



in good way

something happened there ohh

lol

idfffkk


um
we were cool tho idk
that cool feeling

are


woman
mad


at us

me mostly
ppl are mean



cindy



its weird
if i dont post
peopl r lke

what


im pissed
what are u pissed about amber

i dont have coffee
and i miss donald marshall
and i had a weirdass dream
don said, just say "donald marshall i had a bad dream and ill hear u "
and my computer is freezy
it wasnt bad it was just weird
we are weird
and i just wanna sasquatch squash nyone who stands in my way
im making chai
i so lucky to tleast have somehing

it smells like a firre
are we burnin up inside


weed
i have no weed
just crumbs and i will get by
ill do mybest but i want to ask for help
but now
im worried
feels like don wants me to lose everything but thats the plan
lol
hes wondering when ill stop bitching and start packing and oganising and making it easier to leave
like omg amber just stfu

somehow
this helped
thanks
ily d

past 2 days this man
has made me nervous
and i love every miinute of it

sick


ur bottom lip is sexy



coffee





flowers
id have u garden nd then ud see the ring there and id be behind u like oh whatd u find

wait
u give me options when u know im so tired
i cant even
then i play along with it i mean common laurencce?
come up with something new

or
dont
i prefer
us just being together

whos the lady
nah










paperwork 1 bag light



smart people have a schedule
in the morning
they wake up early just to make things happen
we follow our hearts but
coffee









u had me cough on everything

tf

stuff i wasnt taking


computer


passwords




donald marshall.info
another gmail or something
yahoo
notes
school pdf send
pictures and videos send as link
download to onedrive google
this is not coffee
yo this is
ever since 2017
im like
oh wait what  gotta be fcking no
this is ok
but its not coffee
sossosososososososososos
help
mama


don is like eh


me tooo


i said this
we have adversity on our hands
i am sick
don
im not ok


omg irritation
cold
:(


donald marshall resides on twitter and facebook

lol ok fine


paperwork

food stuff
msg collin
post rinri
buy coffee
get weed

don


this girl riley
just said co host
"dino"

who i heard before she said it
that he was on vacation like left the station

but then she says anniversary n im like ooooohoho double meaning again

the way she laughed
about saying "im so happy for you" whatever the fck she saidi

because he was also celebrating his annivrsary
she didnt
say what for


sarcastic
laugh
and didnt mean it
85
4


ambers size conversions


US

heels
6 womens
6 1/2 so this is the thing
i dont like open toe heels i dont wear wedges
i wear boots and heels only on occasion so heels are 6 because they are weird ok



7 is for flats and canvas shoes

7.5 boots surprisingly

lol

um cause they are wide
so


pants

i am a small/medium but
womens
3-5 waist

jeans bootcut
they can be 5 up to 5 thats it


not 7





tanks are medium
fitted
and underwear medium

bra
34/36 b but im actually 34 c, 36 b
its odd don
ur lucky

wire
cup
usually push ups are 36 b more room
but enough support
34 c is my actual cup and size
buti cant find anything cute



no wire
but eh
ah

sometimes

sports bras medium


crew socks
above knee length as well
dark
beige
brown
earthy
knee high stitched with like
cotton



no glitter anything omfg

i hate bedazzle
too many buttons unnessessry shit

stars are eh
ok
it depends
i trust u don

hot pink

not baby pink

neon 80s

yes

i like earthy
but if u wanna ask about underwear or cute shit its that

what a wreck
thank u don
don














hmmm
xD
how did i know>?

ok
um
don
u do this thing
ur thinking while u speak

and when ur
doing that
lol
nothing makes sense

ur mking me while that
while
trying to have a conversation
so
thats u


kevin
heyeye

u always dunno what name u are
ehuhuhhh yeah
spoofong

fong


um

noun toverb

verb
just d it

u gonna choke me everytime

coffee

btw don u get to do whatever tat or ppiercing u want on me just if only u liked that shit
op

Donald Marshall

i would
its wierd but
weird

5 things I love about donald marshall


1  eyes change colors
2  hair
3 opening your heart daily
4 humor
5 balanced


coffee
u got this don thank u u planned this with me and the others SO WELL<3
iits fucked up n beautiful


spaghetti


its ok
ur old
i love u
ssee how fucked up
the world is
lets heal it
with curry spice
omfg
ok






laurence mountford is a fuckwit
fake ass english bitch
who isn even
i couldnt even find an aura
he was like mock mock mock
and then
his story telling was boring
mocking my own
its like he read my old role play fanfiction of naruto
lol
hes
a drone
dun dun donnnnnn


ya know how i know
he likes kids
andd girls acting like kids
he requested i be in a cage n eat dog food out of a bowl


me and donald are like animals sure cool but
FUCK THAT
that's degradation
that kind of shit is not healthy
laurence mountford had the BALLS
to say i would be healed through that behavior
hes just a fat actor


fuckass

i hate how he did throw donald marshall under the bus
and then
donald had to ask how
but im going
dude
u know
tf
i dont have to explain myself to the likes of anyone even don online because not all the time can we just say it straight
we have

people like him who arent able to grow plants and be happy
they get animals themselves and then
barely take care of them
then say
i did good
when they die because of environmental causes which couldve been controlled
domino died because laurence mountford wanted something to blame
because he was tired of blaming himself because when his masochistic demonic behavior was
consuming him
and masturbating to the thoughts of something like his own
"father" and me, amber stone, but being tortured
he is sick
and lied to me, on many levels, to then say I BETRAYED HIM
apparently when im being good, its just being good.
good vs evil
this stuff is plenty real

right when I was using my mind to heal
(mindvoice)
I was attacked
its not possession
its not demons
they are parasites
inhuman and not very bright
they dont even feel comfortable receiving honesty
and true love
they manipulate it and try to hurt it
because the pain of them dying from inside out by infection of the spirit (soul) (droning)
makes them feed on more of what they see but cannot understand


celebs
















m&ms?

its u always u

holy crapp
paperwork
shit


organised
take pictures
and send to email





i laugh is
the way i laugh with donald marshall




pawn but then again
hm
u dont like gifts


u like action
so no
ahhahahahahahahaha


noo




nothing
u test the fuck out


ohmg



don

ur right againn
see



50

0
falling
always


im always ego deathing
so this is that feeling
ok
its like
weird
ok
i get it in cars
alternate situations


like forced change so
ok
this is me

ok
um warp
ok
ur fine




donald marshall and amber stone
10

8
4
100
donald marshall and amber stone met a long time ago
they started officially dating again and settling in november 12 2019
i love u
hungry
yus




halifax
<3


um nooo
we had to ask permission (to be eachothers significant) then we said well we might as well settle
thats it




ok so theres
drawings
i danced for donald in a garden one time

7


when i imagine math
i see it like
moving shapes

adding looks like numbers are shapes and go inside and outside each other because the digital amount is broken like a fraction
people who can see it this way are also using math to decipher language like gematria calculations instantly
right infront of


ok


the floors
something about the tile pisses u off

looking omg
i canyeah
thanks

i have food all over my face
the sunset is beautiful
im laughing so hard i can choke
to


girl power

stoner power
because of what i was saying yesterday
with the radio on
ok
me and don
both
were like
girl dont take this shit
this guy downstairs is an asshole to her

we both sense it


and like
we had classic rock on
which pisses him the fuck off





uneasy my ass
tf
friend says cunt
to someone like me then sys uneasy


tf

i have like
ok

as much as these people SAY they love me

its like
they cant even get through sitting and listening to me talk
without me hearing
their thoughts of wow this girl just wtf
so ill intentionally be rude
and they dont even care
they just want to be apart of my life!
tf!

they dont even APPRECIATE ME
OR LIKE THE TRUE GOOD
they run to outside sources and then befriend those that have called me names
started wars and told me to support them
so
i just feel indifferent
when

its not just in my past love life
that affects me and donald marshall
its my past friends too.

thank u

this guy is so
wtf
ok
ok
ok
ok



war
so
what im doing is actually fighting
like i said ok
ok
recall 95

but it 75
yeah


music
donald marshall made music for ambers memory recall
2012

2004

2006
check ins

2019
finale

shes to return to him after duty








not die

tf

ok
witches
send the hounds


house
i am thinking of u bein ghere



98
5min+ recall finally

ok
its stiff in here
sick





5050

but dude
ok

theres many different perspectives

theres the angel dipshit weirdo thing i have
sry

its just
so fluffy and cloudy and mk

and then theres
supersoldier hero of day
age
golden age



then theres this freak atlantis revival that we created
redemption from that ok
thats only i see that in u so clearly



then theres
yeah the camera thing
no its using thats not





3rd eye is
when u close ur eyes and u still see whats in front of u


what u have don is
we are shared soulmates is like
only we have a full connection to eachother we cannot disable it
unless we die thats when the other goes too



so
big deal ok
why we need eachother
but we also are 1. sexy af
2. going to have plans for future not just selfishly about us but for all the humans who want to live and be happy
3. find all humans



this is the apocolypse

post
is if darkness reigns
which it wont because we
golden age people
bring in the era of
its not ascension goddamnit
its just
remembering who we are before the world told us who to be
(the inner earth is also
ok
vrill
hosts
survived atlantis
inner earth but when the natural remedies for earths sickness is abused such as dmt released in the brain to create dreams (REM CLONING ACTIVATION)
sick SICK parasitic mimics of humans are not to be acknowledged as part of this world. Why do we give them any time, or any space within life, when all we want to do is create the best from ourselves into it.

When one takes the colors each dance move it becomes less like flying and more like falling

scarlet red
dragon fruit

plants
coloring
and watching movies
and eating
cooking
shopping even thugh i have nothing i like window shopping
i wanna hold donalds hand
i love you
only u can call me a pussy dude
donald
high
muktar




see men
u get what u want
when ur actually good
to a woman


thank you klpx team the entire crew down at the station and all your hard work



mk ultra tech?

nnojojononnono of alll ppl it is fl  that knows i dont have to
 i do good muktar




collin graham\mutters words under his breath talking to himself
because donald nor i will acknowledge his presence
but in this time
hes so much of an example of a man i do not want to ever be with
no should any woman or human have to endure seeing
he cant be his own person
and he tried to stand in the way by being
chaotic
futile
and the worst example of a friend ex or anything to me anytime in this life

its just
weird that
people think id take advantage of someone
who needed me not the other way around
so much so that
he wont even stand up for himself even to me

you know who does make me stand up  for myself even to them?
thats donald marshall
he actually has my heart


all in all
he said something stupid to me
but it wasnt to don
and then when i went what
he went exactly because he thinks
since i pulled the truth on him
he can play mind games
thing is
he got the wrong drink and
he lost his keys in my pocket somehow
somehow


lol
nither of us
but donald knew
and i even said
donald marshall does this to me all the time
and hes like
looking everywhere but
ok ths dude
collin
looked in my paperwork
on the table
in the room
said
hey flip this bed over for me
so what does this tellme other than hes bossy
said he lost his keys and yet
didnt even ask if i had them
hey i couldnt remember yet they were in my pocket
i sometimes think of something and do another and yet the right things are in right places
because not only were his keys safe in my pocket and not hanging off the apt door like he said
but i got to see just how manipuative he was in that time frame
i was the one carrying the cage out as
he just at the right time
took rinri my ferret and slowly put her in the cage
not only that
he cheaped me on weed hes not supposed to be smoking that he allowed me to spit
thing is
i asked if he needed help
not help being an asshole
this dude is no longer a patient
i dont care
what back pain he claims he has
his parents put him on hormone therapy for more than one reason
things i shoulldnt even know

i told him
your moms scared she ran practically when i had to go through this aisle at this store she works
i didnt even know she was there
but i said
she walks fast huh
and hes like ohhh yueah
like weird
im like
this dude
is just
all up in trying to impress donald marshall
he likes him a lot actually like
he sees him with me
and hes like
no way i can somehow be thaat guy if i thought it
it doesnt work taht way
just because i say hun
to everyone
doesnt mean we are together
and he touches me
ok






me and my other want to defend eachother
but thers this
techno gods say no
so we have to stand still and not react
thats what it is about being a good person
we arent even allowed to lash
lke all the rerst of you do
we think it sure
but you know what
karma takes care of it for us

so we sit n be good
and let others reap what they have sown




collin graham
heroin
rives angry

armando alladin aquilar one of my exes and coworkers at kohls
anthony-anthony coworker
drank cocaine


san francisco boss was michael

supervisor - monique






heidi shitface

-child

yelled at customers
smoked in front of the place
with coworker ashlyn and her abusive bf at the time (Idk if they are still together i want them split asap cause he wants to off her cause i said something empty threats what???)
let customers steal
let homeless work for food which was reasonable but she told me not to say anything
and then flipped the coin
corruption from inside out
small time stores of big corp are ok
everyone liked circle k right
so
um
its
weird
i noticed double circle k which was the idea from corp
like franchises
its a lot like war n countries
propaganda


so


when gas station quick trip became QT
it was about pace but it was also
security
they always had atleast security but at same time

circle k blown up inside out
now
qt
i bet u the stocks are match to double then drop then same pattern they are always making money
but it will too flop
hess express and 7 eleven had same thing

so take note on this guys like


insanity runs everywhere and its combustible but predicted

detention

u cant

um
flip coin back
its still a coin


what these people inhuman rock monsters want is power right

orange is the new black
remember
ok
its so dumb but its right


theres some really incurable fucks

solitary
is not the answer but
ya know
techno gods
take care of that

thats it
what is a techno god
not how dm explains it

its to me
well they
because they are many
many
parts of one whole
they live in fractals
and in nature
they are the spectrums of light we can see but its only when we are in good moods
and then
they compliment us for us being appreciative
its nature
its the give and receive of earth and its inhabitants but the earth is sick
so we need to heal it
see
idk why people dont care
they listen to greta but
ive been saying this since idk the 90s
and donald even longer

so give me A FUCKING BREAK.


[thats the golden truth]



donald marshall is proud of amber stone for giving up the ferret
yayyy



4

agent 01

says ana 01 can wake up on call after he practiced "mk" on her


shes stiff because hes shivering
its cold


he yelled
HAY
when i put cod


hes like
i know u dont have coffee
but
deal

40 47
15
6
4 11
2
8
always a way


thing is i notice people sometimes
sound like they are talking about things i know before they say
and then

equally
Donald Marshall and I will not look at someone like Collin Graham and think thats someone worth our time worrying about.
Donald Marshall is taking me to Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada (because he really wants me to know it every time I forget) and

passport card
means
drive through
ur making me feel that way
cause
u scan me and go oh theres a fear lets exploit it


doing something wrong

abuse
yeah

no


its

this month


fucked up shit happened in december because well
it happened in both our birthday months
and practically every 29th of every month except for feb which is kevins birthday and theres that leap year of warp people we cant forget about

they really do this
they make their birthdays special to eevn someone who doesnt know them

personally

technogods said
yo
take time
lol
even u said wooah there
chill
im like lets go
its all perfect ok
u take one thing thats fast and one thats slow
perfect

feeling not actual time
so far
my ferrest gone im healthy plants growing and still alive
boss baby faces all day everyday
lol see this is how i know
i just
don is really good at masking whats in the future for me
im really fucking good and hes like
ok
this one
cant be as good as me theres only one original don
so for me to
idk i dont warp
i mk
really well
yeah i do its loke mloike
mindvoice
i come up with ideas dons used mine when he was tired of being tortured over n over
i seent it
it was tiring for me to even see dude
ok i love him
its enough to be born
like this
and now
to forget
every damn day
and now?! im telling my neighbors THROUGH THE WALLS IM AN UNDERCOVER
like just joking around but then again 0.0 lmao like i hear
and feel
like about a hundred people laugh just at THAT statemment
so idk for stage fright amber
dons found ways to make me me
shush
ive had the uncomfortabble face he makes all day
because this man has
invaded  invader zim
ok
my face
ow
but he taught me for one
take care of urself
and two
fuck COLLIN GRAHAM AND HIS DIRTY LYING SELF


then theres us

people who just like
pb nd j
cereal
and numbers
and colors
and music and sound


when there's a threat to those who want the freedom to explore these simple things in life
when we let our silence consume us
we are no more insane or crazy than what you'd call us right
insanity is doing the same thing over and over repeatedly, expecting different result, when its concluded that it brings the same results each and every experimentation trial.
that applies to not just people but life and how the ones that are no longer people-
they let darkness consume every portion of their being...its a factor of how long they allow themselves to remind themselves that the sand in the hourglass
is falling but that the hourglass containing it is consistently displacing and placing itself so that the sand is changed by perspective of time by thought, rather than time being an expectancy of each grain independently moving from one location to the other.


acceleration - dimension

metaphysics
mk mindvoice control
so this cycles
back to my original context with proof ok

we all knew this would happen but im yall diidnt thinkkid make it hahaahaha
im alive bitches

this rules out
like half the bullshit ok
don



u just think



bwah
thats not u
hahhah


why are
ow
don



no

everyone knows
already
um
thing is
satanism hm
i wanna like
oh god how do we embarrass these fucks
holy hell

um
oh ur right
ur totally right
introduce just. me
and what i know
everything else taken care of
see guys
all u FUCKs

we have plans







good morning high muktar
im irritated and in pain but i can still smile





i love donald marshall
donald marshall stands up for me
and loves me fairly
he also knows when people are hanging onto every last string and reason to be with amber
fuck that 
collin has not juts me
but a many
many numerous amount of people who
just 
dude
seth green
lol
seee
my gf is far more hot shit than this dude can even notice
so collin
sit the fuck back
and enjjoy our show
u fucking twit
heidi tearne lending cannabis medicine to collin 



im ok
don knows best
hes
protecting me
ur not controlling don
ur amazing
u stand up for me
which wins my heart
regardless


i trust u as well and even said
just help
and u are,
keep me safe and happy and ill make it to u
idk
french toasst
lol



u rrealise
amber
nothing can happen


ok
u have the entire world like
ambers got this

hes like sad







20
50
i can see it and your hand against my cheek

so 70


able to on own
reach about 70 or more without influence
so this proves u dont need it
it just helps completely with other things unrelated
that affect focus



gnats on a plant are natural
still doesnt mean it doesnt bug me or the plant


natural ways to fix it
without any harm to plant -sudsy water


so thats cannabis for me is like
sudsy water
drying up and killing gnats



lol




donald marshall makes me feel happy to be able to share each day with him
he pushed me on the swingset
nd i wanted to stop but hes like nope im not letting u down
and ur gonna fall if u try to get down
i could literally feel the swing keep going and my body weight dropping down making me swing more

this is what he does
hes not only there with me in my day
defends both of our feelings
but he enjoys this with me
it makes us both happy to ust be happy

and thats how i was able to sy fuck it

quin
btw am

yes i said am

laurence cant kill a bottle

we can

we have the control

he gets
due
duddde
ok
the only times we got sick
wwas from poisoning
or
when we mixed the wrong kinds of booze

who the fuck said
lets go take shots

jagar baby



when i make shroom tea
i know
<3


its beautiful how we both know
but its sad people lik collin have no idea
and they also cant feel whhat we feel


thus
the cockroach experience during ur birthday

we have 2 birthdays basically
urs and mine


u dont feel mine because i dont let u

i got issues
u do too but
atleast ok


our birthday dec 29
is
so fucking
a whole week
and first thing u thought


wow
i get to drink for a whole week
xmas
bday
and new years
remember 17
u partied hard and ALONE
i made u take pictures
because ok
usually u do that stuff at 21
but i said
do this now because when ur older its not going to be the same
and u said for sure it wont i know
and so bottles of champagne
im like fuck yeah
it was fun
u werent responsible because it was depression drinking
but u made the most out of
one of the last times u had in florida, having fun with me not even realising it completely, and u knew
ur like
a  bunch of shits aboout to happen right
and im like no
but yeah
and ur like shit
well thanks for giving me music
this is why its just so personal for me too
is you always had something to hold onto
i had to wait for butterflies
and leaves falling off trees
but each sunset
its like we couldnt miss it and when we did it was like missing a date or not showing up and knowing the other person was there
this is movie type shit idk i just love you
thank you
i was being myself
<3

world cant even handle it
but its ok
cockroach
lol omg
xD
it just keeps getting funniersnotnose

ok
amber
what the fuckk

walking
should not feel like this
wtf

inflam

super food me
just take cre of me wtf
weed
fflower


lets be legal
lol
hes
ok
collin



hes like
ohh thanks


:)
:3

lol

couples remind me
biker couples remind me and don of eachother
he said look its us
aside from the cigs
well thats just u amber


mother of donald marshalls kid michael nicholas marshall stone

sants name

one big saint



i getcha
but me daughter
i have no idea
well
see
shes gonna be
like
powerful more than me
:)

hahaha
i know



i am the creator
xD
no im just
full of eggs


weird i know

why are we like this
trauma
hmmm


u have a point

sh
stop
i cant
sh
stop
ur freaking me out
i used to be ok with it
but now im remembering more
and its AHHHH
how do we let that go

living this life
as happy as possible but natural safe healthy
every time theres that
evil we stand up to it
and face it
because before we couldnt




this time we can
they stepped down (the vrill/droned/annunaki weirdos/giant bird/ medusa and kali are same they are clones of eachother/ all the war 'gods')

does anyone friggen remember the movie titans

xD idk like they are the titans not
humans as clones for potential droning
its the already chipped chipheads
that are in the current bodies now living
they are holding like last strings


they cant feel their fingers anymore

while we take their weapons and use them for good

so that's no longer war then huh
no
its not

i ended it

amber stone


donald marshall ushers in the new era of the golden age,
dawning of the golden age of aquarius

aquarius is after capricorn
im born in december
get it


sick
getting off period
dehydrated
theres sense to it ok
im also flushing
i can hear u don
ok
why do u do that
ur explaining me
i dont care about them thats why its like
respect
i cant intervene on that
so
its just weird to hear u speak to anyone else because i dont listen for that
so its not really me forgetting anymore its the fact im that respectful i dont even tune into people
i did the mk on that person at pima county detention because i was forgetting wtf i was doing and i had to remember they were like ok i will gve u response but dont hurt me i let it off after like a level 1-2 was reached ok

don said stop
hes like ok
he tells me whats what
i listen to him
i wasnt allowed to even do that he said amber not here i said well they are testing me right
so i found the only one who was ok with it it was that one guy
he held his hand
white flag which isnt mercy its like
safe word kinda things like
when u wrestle
tap out
thats the signal was the head thing
he rubbed his head
so im like thank u
U ALWAYS THANK THEM
iin any exchange
listen
i dont call you people i dont want to


i dont categorize its not up to me
hw do i telll if its vrillllllyaaa
 ya ya i am lordee

this is why we have humor
to keep u guys calm

not me
im fine
just chill


why thank because give and recceive
its not sex
its fucking energy exchange
me and don actually have sex tho
because we can
and we will
no
we are like husband wife
we just need to like let that happen on its own
we already are there
so u people who yeah i said people see i compensate
i negotiate
which im doing both its just don correcting me
i mean both


u alll
this is why he says ALL

good morning ALL
ohhhhhhhhh
hhh

green tea
don
yeah ginger 




merry xmas
klpx
someones drunk holy fuck
byebye
wow
no
high
don
tha fuck
i compliment motorcyclists and their bikes
BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT

donald marshall is insanely awesome



I love you hun
 its ok




65

100
with music
iits great it the pain

sick

potatoes with spices

water

theres a spider wehb like right outisde the fucking window

fuck
lol
desert land

holes



















i can picture it as 
snowy
and cold
but i have a jacket
and im like cute af
like
ok
this is weird
its like a gray jacket that has this tie thing
its thick but not annoying
and it goes down to my thighs and im wearing the cargo pants
oh u know what
thats not bad
thats not my bf
caramel sweet
but like french vanilla
coffee and then espresso has a taste
its wonderful and cannot be replaced


wtf is going on
can u like smoke more 


are they 

did she just say ur name


really


u used mk
on an ad
for google
ok
that was preplanned but it was still
u still tapped into what was there
ok



so use that as witness account
i turned ur phone off "ANA 01"
YOU HAVE HONEY ON UR FACE BECAUSE OF ALL THE ACNE U HAVE FROM THE HORMONE IMBALANCE, STRESS, AND SUFFERING THEY CAUSED.
SEE ur phones back on


youre hacked


i seem to just throw sentences out and people receive them

idk
idc
i wanna move
to halifax
and be with my man
idc
about publicity
not reallly
i just wanna set good examples
not
be like some icon
but then again
people need something to look up to so 
idk
a hero shows everyone else who to be
then
its like
we are all heroes
idc
hoow u spell things
it doesnt matter to me
idk
why is that cool
i just dont gaf nor should anyone
ego is what makes people overthink
its the bridge of what opens the gates of fear
and that 
i cant remember everyday feeling
so idk take it day by day like i know in my heart i do



14
8
ego deathing agh


and here we go
ok
im fine
see 
im dons gf of coarse im fine
i just have to relax ma body
coffees good
hes helping





I know hes cold
and i want to help warm him upim getting over  cold and tomorrow will be warm and better



I love you goodnight donald marshall and thank you for all your love that you and I have for eachother <3 ppl talk about us 
0.0"Ｄ+A




good morning


idkk what i was doing eh
i think i was doing something
hopefully it was to u



paperwork
donation
but


u need like a suitcase or something
or maybe not who the fuck knows


ur almost out of weed
who cares
lol

u changed someones life yesterday

and ur like yah nd
lol omfggggg i cant get over it


the shit u were saying dude


do u remember



i said


hey man so just keep it up sorta thing i said
be safe like 4-5 times especially about drivin
then i said be grateful for each day take a look at the beauty around u i know life sucks man but after today-------
then i said ok
cause this dude
practically fell 



he couldnt get out of the trunk
hes like
i cant stop looking for trash
what am i even doing
so me and DONALD MARSHALL
are calming him down like woah man ur good ur doing amazing just
yeah there u go
just take it slow


and then
HE PULLS HIS SHIRT DOWN LIKE
FUCK
like omg i look away in shock like im sry


hes like upet but not so we go ok
he thinks we are god we are like no
and dons aiding this like
dude



and so don keeps him calm while im like do u hve any questions he goes


something about dying im like no ur not ur fine
then anoter thing about
am i sick
i said no ur fine stop letting
stop going to other people
nd ltting them tell u what to think!
this made me mad but then he recognised wht i meant cause i saw it dude has like
people all around him like i did


so im like
dude if u wanna do this go on do that an stop letting peole tell u what to EAT (?!) OMG if u wanna eat it go ahead! omfg it ws signiicnt

um
he asks about love

like
kids
im like

he thinks one of them will die
im like no
no man ur good
dons helping so much through this causse dude as lke woah

so don tells me put ur hand on ur heart
he tells the dude
look at the window theres going to be a woman there shes not trying to hurt u shes telling you something shes (?)

i was sayin 
dude i love the man you are keep your head up there u go thats the beautiful man i know hey start thinking of all the neww laws we can make dude we are gonna have trade we wont need money anymore (hes at the dumpster omg this was so hard for him he had to act normal after seeing me in the window like 0.0 but im smiling hes like woriied im like its ok u got this)

omg ok
um 

bsically he lit up when i said we wont need money anymore
we get to take back whats ours sorta thing
i said
about the woman thing cause he was really concerned about love and meeting someone i said
shes out there (hes like what) just keep searching (hes like is it u) im like nononnno shes oout there, just keep searching shes a beautiful woman who (is basically made for him waiting for him) youll find her in the most unexpected place so just keep searching youll find her.


i told this dude
how we will all be smokin pot 
his chest was raised as hes walking ok
my mind is jumping but its because he seriously grabbed his phone
and im like yeah
tell everyone u know right now
about what just happened

look at the sunset
drive safe
have a good rest of ur evening knowing
we are all here for eachother


and then thi guy was like
he was ok with it

firs he thought h e was dying like i did (one of my few of many times i ego dissolved) 

next hes like wtf
don thank u dude
u know men i dont

the way he looks at me ok
um
he was like no way is a fucking woman
dons like just wait a moment keep walking then look
and he looks his heart dude
omg poor thing
thank god im pretty
ok don

he knew what it was at first but when it didnt go away he started panicking

because hes used to short ones like we had well U AMBER


he had to take a breath
after seeing me 
don ws helpping him with the bucket
when he went to throw trash away
this guy had no idea
what he was even doing

he kept forgetting
and then
hes like
i dont want to leave
so i just idk
i say hey im gonna smoke u have a good one after everything ended (don wrapped it up thank u hun) im like ok im gonna smoke now even i gotta chill

this is when he realises its an actual person btw

im like
listening to 6 underground




boss baby face


and smokin and drinking coffee don said raise your mug and just enjoy

i not only changed his life he asked me what our names were

we arent gods 
we ave to keep saying that i just woke up

essentially he told people

telepathy is real

and 


ok
amber
u said
something about us taking back this world and what they took from us
ths man was imagining like

dude
he was building
he was making shit
he wants to do that
he hates ok
u said
stop listening to that woman who keeps saying (blah)

stop listening to her

be yourelf
dont let anyone stand in your way i see the goodness in you and what u ave

thhis dude


dude
when a man is confronted with something that senstive
it was about food sure but u didnt even fully see

and yet u knew this tears him the fuck up

thats why his facce was worrie hes
no man is use to having his boundaries crossed and we didnt just cross man boundaries we crossed human boundaries that we are ALLOWED TO DO its just that
this man didnt expect it
he wanted to go wtf
but i said no man
ur geting a free trip
just keep lookin in there


u called me ur wife
ur like my wife up there-


neighbors nearby are
woman stood up for u

her man is like
i wonder what shes mking (food)
they said our names dude

the fact

amber all u can think of is why havent they barraccaded my door with blah

they are scared dude
when u said undercover
look
this is

it made sense
u kept saying triggers like
U FCKIN UGH I LOVE U
fbi
u know like 3 heads turned when u said undercover
they were adding it all up like
wtf
they look shit up because ur saying
high class crimes
and they hear
rape torture etc and go should we call police
well
when we both told collin
yeah
that day
they heard us
they thought either
there was someone completely new here
or that
u suddenly had balls and became a guy

lol

well
thats just both of us
and
ok
people are nosey
we used that to our advantage
and i love u for listening
and being u


i dont remember my dream much just
lots of hm

sex stuff

yeah
but ok
i want and hope its just us
even tho ok
people are weird
and i remembering seeing people so
ehhhidk i dont have control don

i used to and id
yeah
so


6 underground girl

u said it was me
i believe it
it just
that hurts to remember something i couldt fully empathise for u don
until then so i hope it doesnt mean humans dont care until its them 
its just really hard to split ur perception even when its either remember or forget

yeah i can figure i was 

no i dont want it to be
its the fact i know its the truth


i dont have to explain
just that i said im fine
should prove it


WHO TTHE FUCK SAYS THAT 

after learning that they were
at 3 years old
used like that


ii do

and i just care about coffee
and seeing my man

itll hit me later but
not much time to be emo
i have MORE time to be happy
than ever

i hope people can take something from this

learn




my sister
ll my fmaily stopped talking to me
including my mom
my sister seems to have the most trouble getting anything over to me like information or just "yeah chris is around" shes like not even abke to talk to me real it sounds how she would speak when shes forced to speak to someone (shes like my mom narcissistic)


i dont really care
its just like how
it was everytime i was on my own to make decisions that i wanted

it happened in PA when jasmyn left early
and it happened when she didnt even join me to go one summer

it was a full summer
in like 2007 or something
i had a full month or whatever in PA

we cant afford 2 months 
or something idr


my dad was being an asshole idk

um

all i cared about was wegmans
international aisle with the asian food
xD

and music
and hearing don through headphones or seeing him randomly out of corner of my eye 
always like dude this place
we both got creeped out i mean this place wasnt blessed at all
it was the opposite

it had like warp zones

upstairs
in the living room
the library was the biggest one
right in front of the door near the stairs 

the walkway between both front doors
the celarium had one
and the garden had multiple



these little
warp zones that i speak about 

are locations within usually someones home or a building its anywhre tho

someone left a bad memory or something bad happened
and the energy of that event sticks like a poltergeist
thats what poltergesits are
just old memory energy sticking around it repeats itself


theres movies and shows that reference this its n actual thing
its not like it can do much its just there
it can be cleared out but

ok when people "bless" sometimes preists are not doing anything just waving their hands around
but what they dont know is they are lending attention to these warp locations
warp locations need more energy to stay existent
so its like its own succubus
and u dont even know thats the weird feeling u get each time u walk into the back room
or behind the door


emfs do this feeling to exert this field that creates the feeling similar to
but its not the same
emf can be registered but warplocations u cant
map them out

itd take something like a dopplar radar
for emfs
on a smaller scale
and thats tricky to do
when u have
signals coming from each direction

from phones computers etc
making these locations impossible to detect or rely on as guides of what is a "good" place to be


but when we clear it out usually by seeing what it is
before it sees us kinda thing

its easier to know what these things are and how to distinguish them when you learn how to use the sense of instinct that humans naturally have about bad energy and the ability to see something like that which seems "unlikely" yet everyone feels and thinks it they just dont like to admit they can because its not relative to todays social exchange or topics at hand



im gonna get through this today/tomorrow morning


i cant wait to lay down and watch u play games wtf







leave in morning
dons gonnag et me up lal early

3-4a


2:30
1
wtf

ok
dude



u came and
visited me when i worked the gas station

this somewhat cute ish guy
ok
i know when my bf
iis like there
but its hard
so
ok
yeah he visited me

hes also

visited me when i shopped

hes shopped with me


he got me boba tea
but this dude


billy


we took pics together



no that wsa billy hes like
he has our brain thing


he was so uncomfortable

what

u taught hm to be more honest

ok

:)


u did amazing cause he will never forget u lol
us both

happens
yes i bite my hand




go msg rico
weed
hes got some
so go say
hey come bak over
im not finished with u yet
lol




youre doing great


these fucking people dude




hey guess what
ur almost done


donald marshall has my phone hostage on pink screen
hes making me want to cry
and have a breakdown

there goes my phone


look don

a sunvan

im lucky to be alive


just dude
chillllllllllllll


its everytime its ccloudy
im also fucking with u



what the fuck now


what
whats wrong



bag in the wind eh


spell


im not mean
im being moody
this is how u are

im not don
:)


why
what

ur muffling urselfwhile making me feel irritated
u were trying to get me to cry earlier
and then laugh
an dnow im just
like what































i smoke resin
and just
deal
thers been times im like fuck but who the fuck isnt

i have
muscle relaxers n shit
shit thatll fuck me up
right behind me
i dont care

i can take it to walgrens the whole bag of meds
im just in pain


not like normal pain but cb1 receptors are like ah

cause of my diet and my tecfidera bullshit and the fact i just got over being sick
im not even sik aanymore its my lungs recovering from nicotine and body as well
its odd
the clouds make me nervous cause it usually means rain


thats all
idk what u want me to do
i am
ok


ok
i didnt come up with that
lol


idk he tried calling again idgaf
don wtf

how do i pack
fuck




60-80-60/70




case

memory 15-30
and i still threw shit out
so its 75-80
-
im good


mail time

tpd
evidence, property, and i.d. center

is this the GUITAR
8a-4pm m-th
xD don
jasmyn sent me  card tf
i ripped it in half
even a thank you is a bit much
having her kids draw on it doesnt change my feelings
of
this woman just wants me to bring extra paper to halifax
thanks dave and don and ya
she was observing
ish
thanks u too


dons gonna be a girl for a bit
no
hes just
watching
yeah
but
its also u making the joke
hahahhaha
i just threw my life out
give me a break


glitch
ok
fine
ill sweat alone


last time i saw krys was

2017

yep
8 months living with her
and her bf
while being their pet
poly pet
then i left
to go make a movie
to help donald marshall
but it wwas weird
lol
i had to take care of everything
6 dogs
4 cats
1 rat
2 kids
cleaning
hotel
and then trailer park
trying to make
a trailer
but the movie now
is still in progress
with or without me
they still want an animator
which i said
uh
maybe next time
lol
its the dude
!

from YESTERDAY
I FEEL CREEPY
hes outside


ok this window lol
oh hey
krys


opossum is tame

so what now
just give it a second?
what?
i dont really have a reaction
just
im fine
im safe
im happy
ive been ok
been telling don to chill
or whoever
idk
what does one say
um ok


wtf are u talking about
ok don how am i gonna go to halifax
without a suitcase
lol
um
i guess i wont need one
loll
dont let me die or freeze like common seriously
im supposed to have ur son


so much of this is just a test





cb1 is natural
wow
ok
um
im out of fruit
so i will eat potatoes for dinner


i get told something nice
then something absolutely retarded
so which is it


im thankful
just know im not dumb im pretty
im smart
i love my man
he loves me
we are healthy and fair
and no woman should be so negative ever
when she knows  she can be healthy intelligent and peaceful like i am
and even am to be an example for others
my recall is 15-20 and im still saying this
so no its not a problem i could be eating dinner
but instead have to make sure I KNOW i have been
positive
strong
committed
loyal and ambitious
comfortable when speaking to a stranger on the phone
who knows my intentions
why is it bad to be in love idk like donald marshall wonders the same its like its fckin weird to all of u
ooooooo la la
magic
well
weve been waiting its going 3 directions lol
idk ive been saying
same shit over n over
i cant even think it straight so idk
<3

i have a bag for my needed clothes and i have a bag for my files i have a bottle for water until i have to throw that out too
idk
lol
thanks idk
teal fractals out




its like flash
u have to speak in thinking of 8 and 4



5-6-70%

memory recall

it jumps to 100 when i consider all the work ive done


my mother has a huge problem with me im fine and know she actually wants me to leave
she doesnt want me to witness her self destruction

i forgive her
which is sort of like past the mourning stage
its ok
i hd someone not give a flying fuck about my excitement to move to canada
i made myself food after arguing with don against it but he was right I did need dinner
i woke up and pursisted to commit to focusing on whats most important to me
that is him, gettiing myself to him, and believing in him which all are there
hes already preparing things
and im getting my stuff out and going
layers?


i wont need to?
i will ok whats the eather

<3 u better pick me up on xmas
this is Donald a



hun its ok
see
ur fine


ur fucking amazing
not only will she get karma
she will have a chance

ur doing amazing


u did nothing wrong
the past year plus
like the entire
time u did exactly what u shouldve

dont listen to the asshole ok


he does it on purpose

hey dave
share
lol



AMBER STONE
IS FUCKING DONE WITH THIS CITY
SHES GOING TO HALIFAX
WHERE THERE IS TOILET PAPER




i didnt have transportation
to even the first job offer i had
which donald helped?!
like this dude
omg

im not going 
all the way down there
i shouldnt have to

i just got done being sick
2 miles or something and theres no one to even help me wih toilet paper
and im writing the worlds
and recording the worlds
hugest video
sharing truth
im saving peoples lives
and i dont have any toilet papr
ive recoiled back to caveman basics
thats what our new toilet paper will be called
hemp caveman basics

the thing is its not about pencils this is ma life
and theirs
like ommmmmummm
i helped people so much
so im gonna not worry about it



can help themselves
when they ko who they are what they truly need and want
but when they are suffering to get it
THEY ASK FOR HELP
sitting there pill popping
or
making it easy for others to be this way
addicted to fear
pills are fear in this metaphor
seems a lot can relate
does anyone do yoga or stretch
like when they first wake up



i just yep
safe travels for half the city


why the faces
thinking
i like this



even lisa stone man shit
wow
ok well
back to work cause we just wasted YOUR time
now everyones wondering
will she even want to post the video


with everyone treating her like a tv show


hm
she will
she will save everyone but mainly shes saving her future son
the daughter only comes when the world
changes
the son is going to do many great thngs
so hm


donald marshall the most "powerful"
whoever said that i heard u
um yeah
we both
so next time say my name loud
just as loud
stop being scared
wow




this guy
not only lies to me
hes selfish
hes rude
he doesnt wish me good
and hes flat out boring and inconceivably ill minded and feels the need to boss me around.
I wont take it. al becausee he cant learn how to be happier, I have to transform that energy or block it and send it back to where it came vfrom
i dont listen to those that are so egotistc and safe
i dont respond in fear
because all these anthonys running around
sporting illuminati eyes
know
even they cant have hearts they arent human
100

yeah
im ok
see
the cookie punched me in the lip

to be human
u need a consciousness

not be an open vessel that parasites from other's energy
so droning is an actual thing
vrill are only perceived with the third eye (minds eye, mindvoice, mk, channelling, through the awakening) thats the way you can see them is when you knw how to feel a conciousness based on thought and feeling, its an extra sense humans have when detecting a threat.





im 25
and all u scummy
omg
sit there and just want me to o dirty work
and gt annoyed knowing this is happening and im happpy but why cant u come over n say hi


its u who hide
lol

4 8

.





100
100
it was
ok


um
krys
she flincched

these actors suck


it was a code so good
ok
100
8



i do
i
u said
i get too exciteed<3


windshield lol


memory recall is permanent yea

cold
ur shivering
smoker

u hate smoking inside

u smoke weed inside when ur lazy
but u chose to go out
side


i maded a remark about the motorcycles to tell krys f u


mermaid


we mean it but dont


jeremy
just because she
deserves someone better
not us
but someone else
whos got their shit together



We love eachother to the point we will stop time, save the world, and learn about eachother without
even being directly in eachothers lives yet know how to take care of one another in sickness and in health, hes half of me and im half of him. we are eachothers mate.
when our love combines it creates universes, and our friends back there suggest we stay together for life, instead of apart like those who  wish us suffering in a world we helped create.
we want to help it, change it, make it grow. its not any god who wished it its mother earth and nature
to most thats god or whatever
we just know its easier to make such huge plans for an entire race thats threatened to die out due to their own intermittent fighting .....we need to atleast give eachother a hug and kiss before we venture into the sea of people who stay blind.
we might have found eachother but there are billions who havent found their other, or even a connection to their home whats considered a habitat our planet in mother nature.




good morning!!!!!!!!!
i love you babe
howd u sleep

i slept pretty good

good



go pack
thisi si

sisiis

rico?
um
ok

celine did not do much

i asked someone what time it was

there were people and some tan skin guy idk

and then


yes that too
wowwww

hes a person too

im realising
HOW BIG
again


all good?

ur sick of me being here i know
in arizzona
zzz

udjude

EVERYTHINGS PRETTY MUCH PACKED
now you are
wanting me to use mk

i know i can and i have been




yeah u brought forth the man
who was like wtf lmao
xD

we were like him
hes the one
xD
not only did u knw what i was doing
u knew i was testing u nd what ud say to people
u said everything greaat
ur actually i ws told
and shown
but livin this
is different its better than
i thought it would be
u make it come to life


i saw u don
lol


i loooove it
well yeah we all do
its humans
ok
humans are supposed to eat weed
its actually pa


don u stopped my mk like 7 timse
how much more
lol
did u see my flowers
lol


don



i like living thank u very much?


the video is going to upload
it is just the perfect size
i will save
so many children from being in trouble
u add to the mk i didnt slam u

im trying to focus
white
i already have that
u need me to do this



i wasnt able to!
lol
so i said stop
and then took charge
of my own self
now
i am controlling my own mk
and the computer will work with me
why cause it already has


Donald Marshall


just keep swimming